Saturday, April 18, 2009

All I know is that I don't know

My recent participation in the Tracker Evaluations and other events have left me feeling very small and humbled. All though I have heard and understood this before, it seems the recent lesson to focus on for me is:

The more you learn, the more you realize what you don't know.

The more my awareness of the world grows, the more understanding I gain, the more this wisdom seems to be hammered home. I feel like the closer I reach to mastery in nature awareness or tracking or whatever else, the more clearly I see that what I see is a single layer... barely a nail scrape on the surface of what is there.

My eyes just become open wider to the awe-someness of the mysteries all around, outside and in. When I am honest with myself, when my personal ego stands aside...sometimes all I can do is stand and stare in wonder.

Just when that part of me that wants to claim some kind of control over the world (the ego) feels like taking control, it seems an opportunity arises for me to open my eyes wider. To listen more closely.

Isn't it funny how it is at the edges of things that life seems to flourish most intensely?

In that place between joy and sorrow, that knife edge between pain and pleasure, selfishness and humility, it is there that life seems to shine most profoundly...

1 comment:

Curt said...

I found much wisdom in your post, Filip. Thank you for taking the time to post it.